[ She never wanted that. She never wanted Cloud to feel anything less than whole. She wanted to see the real him, to dig through the bravado and the nonsense and just... See him. Aerith knows she never really had the chance, and she had been prepared to sit in her new world and watch him grow and age and find a new kind of happiness.
Aerith wanted to be at his side. She wanted to stand with him. She wanted to be there, but... The Ancients had a different path to lead. She had found the Promised Land, and she had sunk into it with all the weight of her own personal duty and glory.
She shakes against him and wishes she was strong enough to smile. Faced with the reality of her own death, her own limited time with the people she loved... She hadn't known she was going to die when she was strong before. This is different. ]
I just... [ Her throat is tight. ] I don't want to let go.
It's okay, [Cloud whispers, picking up his head to rest his chin on her head, stroking her hair. She's always had to be the strong one, she's always tried to bear more than her fair share of the burden of responsibility. Doesn't Aerith, of all people, deserve to be taken care of now? Doesn't she deserve comfort?
That's why Zack had been so angry, and Cloud gets it now. Aerith always automatically assumes the responsibility for anything that goes wrong, and then convinces herself and everyone around her that it's for the best. Sometimes she needs to be challenged on that.
...and sometimes she needs to be held.] It's okay, [Cloud continues, kissing her temple,] you don't have to let go. I've got you, I've got you.
[ It's easy to be strong, that's what she thinks. It's easy because she can feel it in her bones, the way that the whole world leant upon her, waiting for her to crack - but she never did. She was the last of the Ancients, the last person who could speak to the planet, the last person capable of seeking out the whispers and finding the truth, of praying for Holy and knowing that she could guide it. She was the last one, and it had left her isolated, had left her lonely, had left her desperate for something else to anchor her.
Everyone had wanted her for something, before.The Turks, ShinRa, Hojo - so many people wanted her for what she was rather than who she was. Zack and Cloud and the others... They just saw the flower girl who wanted to bring warmth and light to the sad, underdog slums.
She doesn't want to go back to being a thing.
Still, even now, all she can think about is the gentle guilt she feels; Cloud wanted to take her on a nice date and she's ruined it by getting sniffly on him. ]
Okay. [ Her voice is quiet and soft. ] I believe you.
[Well, he did bring it up. If it's anybody's fault that she's getting sniffly then it's his.
Cloud doesn't seem to mind anyway, stroking her hair until she seems like she's calmed down some more and only drawing back when she does first.] Aerith, I don't wanna alarm you, but we're gonna have to walk out of here hand-in-hand or people are gonna think we broke up. [Because your eyes and face is so red right now. Gonna help wipe her face with the hem of his shirt, here ya go honey]
[oh god, he's gonna die because of this] You're not wearing a ring now, though. [DOES HE HAVE THE BRAVERY TO MAKE A HALF-JOKE ABOUT MARRYING HER??? ...no] Maybe I should've taken notes from that play we did. What was the whole thing? 'True love conquers the evil curse' or something? I should've gone down on a knee and kissed your hand.
[ He's so cute. ] Maybe it was too big! Or too small. [ But she's laughing, grabbing at his hand and tugging him out gently. ] Well, you didn't actually propose so you don't need to get down, do you?
I guess not. [He'll take that out. HIS HEART IS TOO WEAK.] You wanted to go get some plant stuff, right? We've got a lot to get done, maybe we should head out.
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[ She never wanted that. She never wanted Cloud to feel anything less than whole. She wanted to see the real him, to dig through the bravado and the nonsense and just... See him. Aerith knows she never really had the chance, and she had been prepared to sit in her new world and watch him grow and age and find a new kind of happiness.
Aerith wanted to be at his side. She wanted to stand with him. She wanted to be there, but... The Ancients had a different path to lead. She had found the Promised Land, and she had sunk into it with all the weight of her own personal duty and glory.
She shakes against him and wishes she was strong enough to smile. Faced with the reality of her own death, her own limited time with the people she loved... She hadn't known she was going to die when she was strong before. This is different. ]
I just... [ Her throat is tight. ] I don't want to let go.
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That's why Zack had been so angry, and Cloud gets it now. Aerith always automatically assumes the responsibility for anything that goes wrong, and then convinces herself and everyone around her that it's for the best. Sometimes she needs to be challenged on that.
...and sometimes she needs to be held.] It's okay, [Cloud continues, kissing her temple,] you don't have to let go. I've got you, I've got you.
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Everyone had wanted her for something, before.The Turks, ShinRa, Hojo - so many people wanted her for what she was rather than who she was. Zack and Cloud and the others... They just saw the flower girl who wanted to bring warmth and light to the sad, underdog slums.
She doesn't want to go back to being a thing.
Still, even now, all she can think about is the gentle guilt she feels; Cloud wanted to take her on a nice date and she's ruined it by getting sniffly on him. ]
Okay. [ Her voice is quiet and soft. ] I believe you.
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Cloud doesn't seem to mind anyway, stroking her hair until she seems like she's calmed down some more and only drawing back when she does first.] Aerith, I don't wanna alarm you, but we're gonna have to walk out of here hand-in-hand or people are gonna think we broke up. [Because your eyes and face is so red right now. Gonna help wipe her face with the hem of his shirt, here ya go honey]
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I'll hold it, don't worry. I'll even kiss you. [ Leaning back, she rubs at her eyes. ] Maybe people will think you proposed.
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The ride is slowing down though, so Cloud helps stow all their purchases which yes, he will be carrying for her, like a gentleman.]
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[ But she grins, leaning up to kiss him again, just because a barrier has been broken and she can do it now. ]
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